nosey ass people.

this is just ONE of the biggest reasons i AM moving.. i see about 15 views for my last blog post. i'm not exactly sure YET what that's all about. my sister and i'm assuming other family members feel like they should protect me from things that's NOT ANY of their business. like how my sister felt like she should "protect" her OLDER and much WISER sister from boyfriends or anyone else who may hurt her OLDER sister when she basically stalked me, traced who used to be my boyfriend according to facebook and tried to threaten him (but he's not the sharpest nail in the box- so he took it as she was interested in him, so he flipped it and started hitting on her- she told me and i dumped him- i don't have time for that shit.. HOWEVER- even though she helped show me what kind of a person he was- she should've minded her own business.. because let me remind you- i AM OLDER and much WISER). i kinda get the feeling that either my sister, mom, or some other nosey ass family member that just needs to mind their OWN fucking business are trying to act all tough and they may be planning to attempt to "help" me.. you wanna help me? you REALLY wanna help me? mind your fuckin business. end of story. i've got myself THIS far in life.. WITHOUT THE HELP OF A NARCISSISTIC BUM OF A MOM OR IGNORANT ASS FAMILY MEMBERS. what about after my car accident when someone needed to take care of me (her flying monkey is attempting to look "smart")?.. well MONKEY.. you ARE a PARENT.. so in that case- you SHOULD understand the responsibilities of a CARING PARENT. the children of that parent are NOT SUPPOSED to be held hostage to a level of living their parent only had the intelligence and desire to be at. i hope antonio or lily leave you when they get older and don't talk to you EVER again so you can see exactly why they chose to cut all contact off with you (because you didn't respect their choices and were controlling). judging by how you're more than likely giving my mom tips on how to parent- THEY JUST MIGHT DO THAT!! *CLAPS* mind your fuckin business. ALL situations are NOT the SAME. you people should know me by experience and you also should know how IF i wanted help with something- I'D TELL YOU ALL. that's another reason why i'm moving- because my family doesn't know how to mind their own god damn business or COMMUNICATE with each other properly.. the further i am away from all you ignorant asses, the happier i'll be. so in other words- my family does NOT make me want to remain in this unopportunistic state. if my family REALLY wanted to protect me- they'd be keeping my mom as far AWAY from me as possible and would be minding their business. you are quite possibly the biggest reason why i don't want to live here anymore. with sad excuses of "support" attempting to show "care" for me by telling me "you got this!" while communicating with me once in a blue moon and not offering me any support or care or advice (encouraging me to attend some sad excuse of a "rehabilitation center" i've ALREADY attended and stopped attending because i recognized they weren't helping me progress in life with ANYTHING and were just taking advantage ofmy LACK of care and advocacy.. they just liked appearing like they were actually assisting me, so they only helped me get so far in therapy and remain at that strength and ability so they could continue getting paid by insurance- oh but all of a sudden you're "supportive" of me going to that dump WHEN MY GRANDMA PROMISED ME THAT I WOULDN'T HAVE TO ATTEND THAT DUMP ONCE SHE DIED BECAUSE "AMANDA WILL HAVE YOU IN NEW YORK!" *yawn* what she was UNAWARE of was that YOU are just as NAIVE as her- IF NOT MORE. plus you don't care enough about me to actually TRY to help me. it's like i can't get to a stage in life that's inconvenient for some bums who just "care" about me whenever it's CONVENIENT or BENEFICIAL for them- ESPECIALLY when it doesn't make my family appear more "caring" and "supportive" than they really are. i'm assuming my overweight sister with a jr. high education is reading this and is amused by this. it's like she expects the more she reads my blog.. her fat ass will magically turn into me. what do you have to say about that FLYING MONKEY? my family (except for joe and jay) are the biggest motivations to move as FAR away from this sorry ass state. i never used to be this bothered by them- but they may possibly be the biggest reason. they're probably proud of this also. THEY DON'T CARE. THEY CARE MORE ABOUT THEIR AMUSEMENT AND ENTERTAINMENT WITH SOMEONE WHO'S ACTUALLY TRYING TO GET THEMSELVES OUTTA THIS SHIT, SO GENERATIONS AFTER ME DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS SHIT (abuse from PARENTS which results in numerous surgeries, ptsd, i'm sure there's more medical conditions caused by them). i took a shower this morning and i looked at my stomach while in the shower- I LOOK LIKE A DAMN VOODOO DOLL ALL STITCHED UP FROM SURGERIES THAT I NEEDED TO HAVE BECAUSE MY PARENTS ARE A BUNCH OF SELFISH ASSHOLES- BOTH OF THEM along with my tracheotomy scar on my neck which i needed to have because of a drunk driver and i needed a way to breathe after the car accident caused by him. what's new? i got scars because of another person's NEGLIGENCE?! at least the drunk driver had enough integrity and respect for me to apologize for it.. UNLIKE MY ENTITLED BUM OF A MOM. if amanda figured that having my mom in this state would give me more desire to stay here- SHE'S OBVIOUSLY MORE NAIVE AND UNINFORMED THAN I THOUGHT. "OOO! HER MOM IS IN MINNESOTA AND SHE WOULDN'T WANT TO LEAVE HER MOM JUDGING BY THE RELATIONSHIP I HAVE WITH MY MOM!" EVERYONE HAS DIFFERENT SITUATIONS IN LIFE, EINSTEIN. so all you jackasses should stop trying to make it look like you actually "care" and go the fuck away. you're obviously not going to help me get what I want done in life.. ESPECIALLY IF IT ISN'T CONVENIENT OR BENEFICIAL FOR YOU.